All posts tagged: yoga

Let go of “body image” and start having fun!

Earlier this month I had the opportunity to take an aerial yoga class. After much deliberation on whether I should or shouldn’t take it, I eventually convinced myself that I was too heavy, felt embarrassed, and ultimately decided not to do it. Well, the opportunity came around again and I though what the hell, just sign up and have fun! I went, and no, I wasn’t too heavy, had the time of my life, and it was an overall amazing experience. This got me thinking …. What else have I been missing out on because of my warped body image issues? I used to surf, a lot. I would drop my son off at school, surf all morning and then pick him up. For some reason or another the amount of time I spent out on the water became less, and less, and then it stopped completely. When I realized how much I missed it, I knew I had to get back out in the water, but by that time, I had gained a lot of weight. …

Thank You Haute Yogi!

My previous experiences with Bikram yoga, many years ago, were not pleasant. I would always feel nauseous like I was going to pass out and die – I even had to excuse myself once so I could go and be sick in the bathroom. I gave it a few tries and then decided it just wasn’t my sort of thing, convincing myself that I’m a Vinyasa flow type of gal, nothing more to it. But a few months ago, there was a challenge at a local studio and I decided to give it a try. It’s been quite a ride and I’m now hooked, but not for the reasons you’d expect. I’m very much in my head at all times and a strong, fast, flow allows me to forget all distractions – I’ve always considered it my moving meditation. However, in hot yoga, the poses are held longer, there’s the unnatural heat one must deal with, and no music … what’s going to motivate me?! Towards the end of my first slow, methodical, focused, unbearably …

The When, Where, and Why of a Yoga Selfie

A few weeks ago I was at a reggae festival with my son. We were backstage, and I thought how cool it would be to do a headstand on the grass with the stage in the background: “What yogis do when backstage.” I asked my son if he could take a picture of me, which he thought was pretty cool, and then I started looking around for the perfect place. All of a sudden, I was taking way too long to figure this out and I heard a “come on mom, this is perfect!” At that moment it hit me: why am I having a picture taken here? What’s the point? Is there any educational value in it? Any growth? The answer was NO. Yes, it would have been a cool picture to post on Instagram, and everyone who knows me, knows I place a very high priority on having fun, but this just wasn’t me, it’s not who I am. In the Bhagavad Gita, we are told to question the motivation behind actions. Are …

Going with the flow

Looking back at these pictures I was reminded that this trip almost failed from the beginning. Last month I went on a yoga retreat with my mom to celebrate two very important milestones. It was in a beautiful location, with an amazing teacher, and the possibilities were endless; however, the trip didn’t start out so smoothly. I’m a bit of a perfectionist and I like things a certain way (most of the time). I had planned out everything for this trip perfectly, but what I hadn’t accounted for was human error. In order for us to reach our final destination we had to take a little puddle jumper (twin engine) that flew from San José, Costa Rica to Puerto Jiménez on the Osa Peninsula. Well, I read the time wrong and we ended up missing the flight. Due to the size of the plane and the amount of travelers, the only flight we could get on was the following day at 5am. Everything is a bit matter-of-fact now, but when I was at the counter …

Lessons Learned …

As the L.A. Marathon approaches I was reflecting on my experience last year. I ran and finished the marathon at 190lbs (I have never shared this number before!)- the only other time I’d ever been close to this weight was when I was about to give birth to my daughter, and I quickly lost all my baby weight soon after. However, when my daughter was around 3, I started gaining weight: it was a combination of lifestyle changes, lack of exercise, and stress. Soon I was too embarrassed to go to my usual yoga class, too embarrassed to run, and so my exercising slowly came to a halt which, of course, led to more weight gain. For so long I equated my physical appearance with self-esteem, how people liked me, how social I was, and when I no longer looked like my idea of my perfect self, I began to fall into a deep spiral of self hate. I would wake up in the morning and hate the person staring back at me, I felt ugly, unattractive, …