All posts tagged: body image

Let go of “body image” and start having fun!

Earlier this month I had the opportunity to take an aerial yoga class. After much deliberation on whether I should or shouldn’t take it, I eventually convinced myself that I was too heavy, felt embarrassed, and ultimately decided not to do it. Well, the opportunity came around again and I though what the hell, just sign up and have fun! I went, and no, I wasn’t too heavy, had the time of my life, and it was an overall amazing experience. This got me thinking …. What else have I been missing out on because of my warped body image issues? I used to surf, a lot. I would drop my son off at school, surf all morning and then pick him up. For some reason or another the amount of time I spent out on the water became less, and less, and then it stopped completely. When I realized how much I missed it, I knew I had to get back out in the water, but by that time, I had gained a lot of weight. …

Lessons Learned …

As the L.A. Marathon approaches I was reflecting on my experience last year. I ran and finished the marathon at 190lbs (I have never shared this number before!)- the only other time I’d ever been close to this weight was when I was about to give birth to my daughter, and I quickly lost all my baby weight soon after. However, when my daughter was around 3, I started gaining weight: it was a combination of lifestyle changes, lack of exercise, and stress. Soon I was too embarrassed to go to my usual yoga class, too embarrassed to run, and so my exercising slowly came to a halt which, of course, led to more weight gain. For so long I equated my physical appearance with self-esteem, how people liked me, how social I was, and when I no longer looked like my idea of my perfect self, I began to fall into a deep spiral of self hate. I would wake up in the morning and hate the person staring back at me, I felt ugly, unattractive, …